Tomorrow is our first of 2 inseminations. I am nervous, excited, and everything else you can imagine. I made 11 eggs!!! I cant believe it. Dr Chen was pleased and worried, she didnt want me to be hyper stimulated, but she also thinks this is our best chance at making a baby. All my faith lies with God and Dr. Chen. I hope we will meet soon and all my hopes, dreams and aspirations come true when I read that clear blue stick. Untill then fingers and toes crossed.
-Mama
Monday, July 1, 2013
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
06-25-2013
Its been quite awhile since I have updated. Probably because t stresses me to dwell on our pregnancy failures, but mostly because its too hard to speak about it for me personally. We are in the process on continuing to try and make you, it has been quite the journey. I will try and be patient, however you'll soon know that's not me at all. So until next update, we haven't forgotten about you, were still working very meticulously, and also very quietly.
xoxo,
Mama
xoxo,
Mama
Monday, April 22, 2013
CD 5
Well, we are right back into all the crazy medications and emotional rollercoasters again. I really need to stop reading so much, I find that if I submerge myself in the failure, that becomes an option in my head and I dont want that to exist in our trials. So far on these meds i feel nothing. Hopefully a good thing? Perhaps this medication is more mild, and I just had a bad reaction with clomid. We are on tamoxifen, and I have two shots of bravelle, starting tonight. Sat we see Dr. Chen and see where everything stands. Keep your finger and toesies crossed little one, we are on a mission to get you created!
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
15 days post iui
BFN
Am I disappointed? of course I cant help that feeling, I feel like I let your mommy down the most, and memaw, and everyone else. I cant tell you how bad I wanted this, and how discouraged I feel at some points during the day. I promise I am going to keep praying and doing my best, to prepare for our next try. I know that within time, and with plenty of prayers and patience, I will meet you someday.
Am I disappointed? of course I cant help that feeling, I feel like I let your mommy down the most, and memaw, and everyone else. I cant tell you how bad I wanted this, and how discouraged I feel at some points during the day. I promise I am going to keep praying and doing my best, to prepare for our next try. I know that within time, and with plenty of prayers and patience, I will meet you someday.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
9 DPO
Well Today is day 9, or 8ish since we had 2 back to back IUI. What have I been feeling so far? Well I've been so focused on trying to force myself to be neutral that in my head most of the time I feel nothing. Some light cramping, more like twinges, they are intermittent. At first I was starving, now I get nauseous at the drop of a pin, it's not that I have morning sickness, it's just that i get that watery mouth, the urge to puke a lot easier than ever before. Could this be from the post nasal drip im currently having because Mommy likes to sleep with the window open? Probably. I sent your mom out for some saliditos yesterday, she then proceeded to bring me the wrong thing TWICE, even tho she knew exactly what I was talking about. Sometimes I wonder where her mind wanders lol. Anywho, I thought once we got into our second week, that there would be some downhill effect, but nope, the days are actually passing even slower. I am a bit tired today, and although i've been sleeping well, i frequently wake up at like 3 for about 20 mins and drift back off to sleep. Ive been having really weird dreams, I rarely dream or remember them, but I am starting to wake up with resonance of them! Unfortunately they're like crazy action movies or scary nightmares lol. I have been craving things I used to hate, but as far as eating weird things, im no stranger to that. Im staying optimistically, yet cautiously positive, and I just hope when I pee on that stick all the prayers and hope and dreams of you will finally come true. Words cant describe how grateful to God we will be, and we swear every night we will never let you down. You will be raised right by the Lord, with morals, and love within blended families, and you will be the best kid ever I just know it. Mommy and I love you so much, please be implanting!
-Mamma
-Mamma
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Coincidence? I think not
Just when I get discouraged, God has the BEST ways of keeping me going. I can't be more grateful for each of these moments.
6 days post IUI
It's even six days and I feel...nothing. I try I not over analyze any cramps or odd hormones, weird smells or emotions. This is so very hard, but I pray to God everyday and ask him for the strength and patience to see this all through. Day by day, were downhill from here.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
2 days post IUI
Oh I must be crazy, why has my smell gotten pristine? Why does my skin look tan and wonderful why do I swear I feel pressure in my uterus? Why do I keep thinking there's a mango sized baby in there and there's probably not? Lol I think about what it's gonna feel like on April 16th testing. Or what it may feel like looking down and seeing my period. I suppose only time will tell. I'm staying very optimistic and I think I'm mis reading every tiny little detail secretly hoping I really am pregnant. What's gonna be more scary finding out I am and praying that it sticks? Or finding out I'm not? Either way I'm ready for it, as ready as I'll ever be. Your mommy is going nuts. I know she tries really hard to hide it, and she does; but she said its the longest two weeks of her life! Mine too, especially at about 3am I always wake up and think about you, then I pray so hard that you really do exist and you're not just a wish in my heart but a bean in my belly!
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
IUI
Well love bug, I ha two IUI this week. One yesterday and one today. Our counts were great! Yesterday 50 million and 50% motility and today 60 million and 55-60% motility. I stayed in bed ALL day yesterday and mommy didn't even let me pee for like three hours after our first IUI. I know she's silly sometimes. Now we pray our hearts out and keep our fingers crossed. Tomorrow I go in to see if my eggs dropped, I sure hope they have. I love you and I can't wait till April 16th when I test hope I don't go crazy by then!
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Right around the corner..
I can't believe it, but today we picked up our tank! It was such a bittersweet feeling. So nervous yet so excited and proud, especially because not only did mommy come, but memaw came too! We carried you around all day and mommy stashed the tank in the office till Monday. I'm not sure how I'm gonna sleep untill the. I'm so excited!
Oh boy
Well guess what? We went to the dr today and dr Chen said I made 4 eggs! I know, I could hardly believe it myself, she also said that I had to come in early to make you. Right now it's 2am and I cannot for the life of me sleep! I am so excited and so nervous all at the same time. Memaw is coming with us tomorrow and she will get to see you as an egg! Everyone is so very excited and your mommy and I called all our closest loved ones to tell them about the news! I've been praying so very very hard every single day and I hope that God hears us. I know he listens and I have so much faith in him. We will get to meet you soon I can feel it. I can't believe after so many months of planning we finally get to try. I'm trying my very best to stay positive and not worry too much. I love you so much and I can't wait to make you!
-mama
-mama
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Let the crazy begin!
Or end rather, we just finished our 5 days of clomid CD3-7 on march 26th. My ovaries feel the size of grapefruits, and Im afraid to run anywhere for fear of them bursting or falling down my leg! I actually didnt experience much craziness, just felt like a big fat lady in a small hot room , especially in the middle of the night those hot flashes were ferocious! A few cramps here and there but luckily no mood swings! More lucky for your mommy :P. I am SO SO SO nervous, worried, excited and concerned about making you next week. I will feel better on friday when I see some eggs in there. I love you so much, i've been praying to st. gerard for you SO SO SO hard. And of course everyone else, I left roses for the annunciation of Mary at church the other day and I even bought some candles and prayer cards.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Deep breaths, patience is a virture.
Dear baby,
We are in the home stretch (of our first journey of hurdles). I am taking 100 mg of clomid, which is supposed to make me act like a crazy lady but I actually don't feel too shabby. I get pretty crazy 300 pound fat lady hot flashes, and they are accentuated in the middle of the night, I have a little bit of bloating, and last night (day 3 of clomid) I felt my ovaries doing something which felt like light cramping which was weird, mildly uncomfortable, but I fell back asleep. I think the thing that has got me the most was the lack of sleep; and I cant say its not from a combination of being excited, a little worried, and more excited. At our last RE appt, Dr. Chen said we aren't allowed to have a booster shot, because we would have two of you!!! Could you imagine TWO little nikki's running around? :P So in a few days we will go back, see how my little eggs (one of them possibly being you) is developing, and then we will wait a few more days go back and BOOM make you! Well I can hope and pray that it's that simple, but we will just have to wait and see. Just know that every night with every fiber in my body I pray so hard for you. I pray that we get to meet you, that we get to love you, and we finally get to hold you. We try not too be too rambunctious about the idea of you quite yet, but in the back of my mind you're really all I think about. Mommy has been pretty good with me, I know shes excited because she talks about you all the time. She picks out some FUNKY names let me tell you. Of the possibilities so far she wants you to be name ATTICUS?! I know, I know just like the book, but hey mommy is a nerd so dont take it out on her too bad :P.
We are in the home stretch (of our first journey of hurdles). I am taking 100 mg of clomid, which is supposed to make me act like a crazy lady but I actually don't feel too shabby. I get pretty crazy 300 pound fat lady hot flashes, and they are accentuated in the middle of the night, I have a little bit of bloating, and last night (day 3 of clomid) I felt my ovaries doing something which felt like light cramping which was weird, mildly uncomfortable, but I fell back asleep. I think the thing that has got me the most was the lack of sleep; and I cant say its not from a combination of being excited, a little worried, and more excited. At our last RE appt, Dr. Chen said we aren't allowed to have a booster shot, because we would have two of you!!! Could you imagine TWO little nikki's running around? :P So in a few days we will go back, see how my little eggs (one of them possibly being you) is developing, and then we will wait a few more days go back and BOOM make you! Well I can hope and pray that it's that simple, but we will just have to wait and see. Just know that every night with every fiber in my body I pray so hard for you. I pray that we get to meet you, that we get to love you, and we finally get to hold you. We try not too be too rambunctious about the idea of you quite yet, but in the back of my mind you're really all I think about. Mommy has been pretty good with me, I know shes excited because she talks about you all the time. She picks out some FUNKY names let me tell you. Of the possibilities so far she wants you to be name ATTICUS?! I know, I know just like the book, but hey mommy is a nerd so dont take it out on her too bad :P.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Good morning my love bug,
Tomorrow we are going to see Dr. Chen, and consult about some medicine so that we can finally try and conceive you! I have been patiently waiting for this day for such a long time. I pray for you each and every night, and I think about you all the time. I wonder what you will look like, and why I don't dream of you more. I dreamt of you for the first time the other day, you were in my belly. I didnt know if you were a boy or girl, all I knew is that I was just happy that I got to feel you in my belly. Mommy is so very excited for you as well! Ahhh I am trying to be patient, and trying not to stress, as well as try not to feel defeated or negative at all. I cannot wait to meet you my little one, I love you more than you can ever imagine.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
3 days before the countdown begins!
Well, we have purchased 6 vials, a whopping 4k. Who would have known that if you wanted to have a baby and were smart and planned it, you would have to pay for sperm when men throw it around the world for free! Oh the joys of being gay. On the 16th I am scheduled to stop taking birth control. YAY thank goodness, that stuff makes me crazy, but before we cheer too much, on day one of my period I have to call in, where on days 3-7 I will take clomid, which is said to make people SUPER crazy, thank goodness its only for 4 days. I feel sorry for your mommy sometimes, however its all part of the process :). I cannot wait I am so excited and nervous, I am just trying to contain it all and be calm about it. I will miss acupuncture, it was relaxing and Dr. Han and Grace are so very very nice. We are so close I can feel it. Memaw has a good feeling about this all, and I am hoping and praying very hard that this is all part of the plan, we want so badly to meet you already. I will be back soon to give you more updates. Love you bunches.
mamma.
mamma.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Impatiently patient.
We are inching closer and closer and I cannot help but be so incredibly nervous and mostly excited, or trying to be anyway. Memaw says that my polyps will be gone when we go check them out on Wednesday, and let me tell you baby, I hope so bad that she is right. Mommy and I have been so busy, I study all the time, and mommy works hard for you every single day with her two jobs. I have been going to acupuncture, and it's nice and relaxing. I am just hoping all goes well after wed, and if not, well I just hope we can stay on track and start trying for you the beginning of April. I think about you every single day, and I look at your donors picture every day as well. I see those cute little dimples and that precious smile, and I forget for a moment how terrified I am that I may never get to meet you. I know that is such a negative thing to say, but I have never been so fearful in my entire life, I suppose it will only get worse once we have you in our arms. I know it is about God's will, and his plan. I know his plan is greater than any plan we have ever had, I know that although I would love to wake up and be on my timeline everyday, I know we are not, and especially with you my little precious. All I know is that you will be worth every single ounce of work. Every night that I have stayed up terrified that I wont be well enough to try for you, scared that I may disappoint your mommy if i cant be well enough to grow you. I get really stressed out because I love you and need you so much. How can a person need someone that doesn't even exist yet? I know you re probably wondering about this. You know I wish I could explain it to you, the yearning my soul feels every time I think about you. You know I have never been fearful in my entire life. The only thing I have mildly worried about is failure, and perhaps I have never met such immense amounts of failure since I have been trying for you. I am not good and not being able to be better or do better, and when it comes to your damn house, I just can fix it and convince myself that it should repair itself. I feel like I have worked so hard, and I have ached in my soul through every bone and every fiber of my body each time that something went wrong, because I just want to be your mama. I just want to hold you and love you and teach you and I want you to know your mommy and love her the way I do because shes gonna be your best friend just like she is mine. I want you to know your memaw and your papa bear, and grandma and grandpa. I just need God to give me the CHANCE. I promise I wont screw it up, I promise to be good to you in every way possible, and I am trying to be virtuous about being patient but gosh darn it, it is so difficult most days. I will try my very very best not to be discouraged.
Well, onto happier thoughts. Your mommy and I have been thinking of names and heres what we have come up with so far.
Mommy: Boy: Oliver, Joaquin, Sam Girl: Charlotte
Mamma: Boy: Mateo, Oliver Girl: Zooey, Charolotte, Frankie, Sophia, Ava
I guess im planning on you being a girl.... and mommy is crazy for wanting to name you after our puppy, but thats just her favorite name in the whole wide world. Im sure as soon as I see you or feel you, I will know exactly what im gonna call you. I love you so much. I will be back soon
Well, onto happier thoughts. Your mommy and I have been thinking of names and heres what we have come up with so far.
Mommy: Boy: Oliver, Joaquin, Sam Girl: Charlotte
Mamma: Boy: Mateo, Oliver Girl: Zooey, Charolotte, Frankie, Sophia, Ava
I guess im planning on you being a girl.... and mommy is crazy for wanting to name you after our puppy, but thats just her favorite name in the whole wide world. Im sure as soon as I see you or feel you, I will know exactly what im gonna call you. I love you so much. I will be back soon
Monday, February 11, 2013
Meet your close family..
Lets now talk about all the people who are gonna drown you in kisses as soon as they meet you. We will start with my side, when I talk about me i'll call myself Mamma, and when I talk about your other mom I'll call her Mommy, that's how we will differentiate until you give us your own names ok?
Ok Mamma's Side:
MeMaw: This is my mom, she is so smart and so beautiful and so scary. She calls herself the dragon lady, and she calls me and your auntie dragon babies. She is the strongest woman I know and she laughs funny. She has dimples just like your (dad/donor). She cooks really delicious, and is an amazing host! She opens up her doors to everyone and is so loving and welcoming. She puts everyone before her, and has sacrificed so much to make me and your auntie into who we are today. She likes dancing, and crown royal, and LOVES puppies, and animals in general. She likes being in the sun and around family, and rockabilly music, she LOVES sweets, playing video games with papaw, and buying bootleg movies from the mexican guy from superior. She cant wait to hold you and spoil you, she has already started telling people about you.
Auntie Devyn: She is my only sister, and she is a Navy Sailor! Can you believe that she is going to see the world? She is an old soul, and LOVES animals, in fact she has a farm at memaws house. She has a bunny named besito, a turtle which isnt named, she had lots of bugs but they died, she also had a few fish too. She dances funny, and has dimples just like memaw. She likes to eat taco bell, and have red bull and hot cheetos. She is SO smart and knows so much about computers, she can probably build one. She is really really good at video games, and she hates cleaning lol. Her and I have so many funny stories to tell you, and she is probably gonna tell you I was mean to her when I was little but dont believe all that.
PaPaw: This is my poppa bear. This was memaws first love. Your papaw is the most happiest person you will ever meet! He is so smart he can take apart a whole car and put it back together! He is a mechanic, and he can also weld things together. He likes riding motorcycles, and drawing, and dragcars, and he LOVES kumi. He has the best laugh you will ever hear and the BEST bear hugs that will squeeze you so hard you'll fart. He is so good at video games, and he wins at all the board games and he is SO funny. He will love you so much he has such a rare quality of loving his family unconditionally, and he is the glue between all of us. He makes killer chili verde, salsa, and he hates all sauces that are white. His mom is also the nicest lady you will ever meet! She will bring you cupcakes and buy you awesome pajamas.
Papa Jim: This is my grandpa. He has a pokey mustache, and I bet he will be afraid to hold you. He is such a hard worker, and he is my best friend. He has a funny laugh and always sniffles because he has allergies. He is the most generous man I have ever met, and he likes elephants!
Great Grandma Ida: She already loves you. She talks about you all the time and cant wait to hug you. She is very tall and has crazy big blonde hair. She is VERY loud and yells a lot, most words you're not supposed to repeat so i'm just warning you now. She makes the BEST potatoes, spaghetti, pot roast, and buttered bread in the whole wide world. You will love her very much and she will ALWAYS confuse your name, and talk to you in baby talk even when you're old, that's just her way of loving you :).
You have lots of cousins and aunts from this side, but these are just the few that you will probably be closest to.
Mommys side:
Grandma: She is so so so tiny just like your mommy. She is one of the BEST cooks that has ever cooked. She has a really really funny laugh, and she is so caring and so generous, and so excited to meet you! She is a really fast learner, and every time I go to her house and cook for her she learns my recipes in a snap! She likes to sit down and talk with us whenever we go over, and she loves babies!
Grandpa: He is a very very very quiet man. He LOVES cars, and he can also take apart and build a whole car! He also likes sports, especially soccer. Did you know he played soccer just like mamma? In fact he coaches my team! He doesn't yell much which is a good thing :). He has a funny mustache too. He really likes having the lawn nice and neat, so when I go over hes gardening alot. He is also very handy and even built a part of his house, and likes fixing it all up.
Auntie Clarissa: She is the most talented artist! She makes all kinds of beautiful cakes and cupcakes and even snacks and chocolates. She has the most addicting laugh ever. She has such a good sense of humor and is such a good sport. She is the tallest our of your aunts, and she is very pretty. She has her degree from cal poly and is extremely smart! She is one of those people who are pretty much good at everything. She is so excited to meet you, and she comes over all the time and asks about you :).
Auntie Natalie: She is kind of quiet too until you get to know her. She is extremely smart, and witty. She plays on my soccer team. She is very very talented and has a good eye for decorating and photography. She even designed your grandpa and grandmas bathroom all by herself. She wants to be an interior designer, and she is very talented and dedicated to her studies. She is an excellent drink maker, and likes lots of fruit. She also LOVES candy of all kinds, so I bet you will like that about her.
Uncle Chris: He is very very very loud, and has a funny nose. He likes to wear checkered jackets, and LOVES taking cars apart, but he's not so great at putting them back together. He is your only uncle, and I hope by the time you are born, he will be able to be around you and love you.
Now let me introduce you to all your brothers and sisters:
Joaquin: He is a white poodle, and he is going to be around you alot. He likes to cuddle with me every single night and he is so so so so smart. Mommy gave him anxiety so he crys a lot, but he always poops outside!
Tootsie: She is a butthead, and she smells like a dirty mop. She has a very short attention span and always almost trips great grandma Ida, that's who she is usually yelling at. She is smart when she wants to be, but more than anything she loves food. She is black and white and fat so she looks like a cow.
Kumi: is papaws favorite, and she is a princess. She likes to sleep on her back like a human and she has a lip like popeye. She also likes to kill small animals and eat weird things, but thats just part of her genetics as a terrier.
Hana: is a snapper, she likes to bite ankles, and shes the only puppy who doesnt have stinky breath. She is a good protector, and a good snuggler. She likes when you scratch her because shes always itchy and she likes to nibble you if you get her favorite scratch spots.
Ziggy: Likes to pee everywhere and he is scared of EVERYTHING, even his own farts. He likes to eat only one kibble at a time, and has giant eyeballs. He's not very smart.
Cingun: Is a scary monster, she looks really creepy, and she likes to watch people get dressed. She has no teeth and shes bald everywhere except her head and her feet. Sometimes they call her baby angel.
Baloo: Speaks only chineese and only likes asians, shes very nice and sweet.
Meelo: is WILD he will pee on your shoes if you talk to him before his bathroom breaks, he gets really excited and he is Joaquins son.
Dali: Is meelos mom and Joaquins wife. She is a small poodle and she likes to eat cinguns poop.
Cotorro Feo: Is very very loud and used to wake mommy and I up when we slept over in san dimas.
Henry: Likes only Natalie, and he scratches everyone else.
Ok Mamma's Side:
MeMaw: This is my mom, she is so smart and so beautiful and so scary. She calls herself the dragon lady, and she calls me and your auntie dragon babies. She is the strongest woman I know and she laughs funny. She has dimples just like your (dad/donor). She cooks really delicious, and is an amazing host! She opens up her doors to everyone and is so loving and welcoming. She puts everyone before her, and has sacrificed so much to make me and your auntie into who we are today. She likes dancing, and crown royal, and LOVES puppies, and animals in general. She likes being in the sun and around family, and rockabilly music, she LOVES sweets, playing video games with papaw, and buying bootleg movies from the mexican guy from superior. She cant wait to hold you and spoil you, she has already started telling people about you.
Auntie Devyn: She is my only sister, and she is a Navy Sailor! Can you believe that she is going to see the world? She is an old soul, and LOVES animals, in fact she has a farm at memaws house. She has a bunny named besito, a turtle which isnt named, she had lots of bugs but they died, she also had a few fish too. She dances funny, and has dimples just like memaw. She likes to eat taco bell, and have red bull and hot cheetos. She is SO smart and knows so much about computers, she can probably build one. She is really really good at video games, and she hates cleaning lol. Her and I have so many funny stories to tell you, and she is probably gonna tell you I was mean to her when I was little but dont believe all that.
PaPaw: This is my poppa bear. This was memaws first love. Your papaw is the most happiest person you will ever meet! He is so smart he can take apart a whole car and put it back together! He is a mechanic, and he can also weld things together. He likes riding motorcycles, and drawing, and dragcars, and he LOVES kumi. He has the best laugh you will ever hear and the BEST bear hugs that will squeeze you so hard you'll fart. He is so good at video games, and he wins at all the board games and he is SO funny. He will love you so much he has such a rare quality of loving his family unconditionally, and he is the glue between all of us. He makes killer chili verde, salsa, and he hates all sauces that are white. His mom is also the nicest lady you will ever meet! She will bring you cupcakes and buy you awesome pajamas.
Papa Jim: This is my grandpa. He has a pokey mustache, and I bet he will be afraid to hold you. He is such a hard worker, and he is my best friend. He has a funny laugh and always sniffles because he has allergies. He is the most generous man I have ever met, and he likes elephants!
Great Grandma Ida: She already loves you. She talks about you all the time and cant wait to hug you. She is very tall and has crazy big blonde hair. She is VERY loud and yells a lot, most words you're not supposed to repeat so i'm just warning you now. She makes the BEST potatoes, spaghetti, pot roast, and buttered bread in the whole wide world. You will love her very much and she will ALWAYS confuse your name, and talk to you in baby talk even when you're old, that's just her way of loving you :).
You have lots of cousins and aunts from this side, but these are just the few that you will probably be closest to.
Mommys side:
Grandma: She is so so so tiny just like your mommy. She is one of the BEST cooks that has ever cooked. She has a really really funny laugh, and she is so caring and so generous, and so excited to meet you! She is a really fast learner, and every time I go to her house and cook for her she learns my recipes in a snap! She likes to sit down and talk with us whenever we go over, and she loves babies!
Grandpa: He is a very very very quiet man. He LOVES cars, and he can also take apart and build a whole car! He also likes sports, especially soccer. Did you know he played soccer just like mamma? In fact he coaches my team! He doesn't yell much which is a good thing :). He has a funny mustache too. He really likes having the lawn nice and neat, so when I go over hes gardening alot. He is also very handy and even built a part of his house, and likes fixing it all up.
Auntie Clarissa: She is the most talented artist! She makes all kinds of beautiful cakes and cupcakes and even snacks and chocolates. She has the most addicting laugh ever. She has such a good sense of humor and is such a good sport. She is the tallest our of your aunts, and she is very pretty. She has her degree from cal poly and is extremely smart! She is one of those people who are pretty much good at everything. She is so excited to meet you, and she comes over all the time and asks about you :).
Auntie Natalie: She is kind of quiet too until you get to know her. She is extremely smart, and witty. She plays on my soccer team. She is very very talented and has a good eye for decorating and photography. She even designed your grandpa and grandmas bathroom all by herself. She wants to be an interior designer, and she is very talented and dedicated to her studies. She is an excellent drink maker, and likes lots of fruit. She also LOVES candy of all kinds, so I bet you will like that about her.
Uncle Chris: He is very very very loud, and has a funny nose. He likes to wear checkered jackets, and LOVES taking cars apart, but he's not so great at putting them back together. He is your only uncle, and I hope by the time you are born, he will be able to be around you and love you.
Now let me introduce you to all your brothers and sisters:
Joaquin: He is a white poodle, and he is going to be around you alot. He likes to cuddle with me every single night and he is so so so so smart. Mommy gave him anxiety so he crys a lot, but he always poops outside!
Tootsie: She is a butthead, and she smells like a dirty mop. She has a very short attention span and always almost trips great grandma Ida, that's who she is usually yelling at. She is smart when she wants to be, but more than anything she loves food. She is black and white and fat so she looks like a cow.
Kumi: is papaws favorite, and she is a princess. She likes to sleep on her back like a human and she has a lip like popeye. She also likes to kill small animals and eat weird things, but thats just part of her genetics as a terrier.
Hana: is a snapper, she likes to bite ankles, and shes the only puppy who doesnt have stinky breath. She is a good protector, and a good snuggler. She likes when you scratch her because shes always itchy and she likes to nibble you if you get her favorite scratch spots.
Ziggy: Likes to pee everywhere and he is scared of EVERYTHING, even his own farts. He likes to eat only one kibble at a time, and has giant eyeballs. He's not very smart.
Cingun: Is a scary monster, she looks really creepy, and she likes to watch people get dressed. She has no teeth and shes bald everywhere except her head and her feet. Sometimes they call her baby angel.
Baloo: Speaks only chineese and only likes asians, shes very nice and sweet.
Meelo: is WILD he will pee on your shoes if you talk to him before his bathroom breaks, he gets really excited and he is Joaquins son.
Dali: Is meelos mom and Joaquins wife. She is a small poodle and she likes to eat cinguns poop.
Cotorro Feo: Is very very loud and used to wake mommy and I up when we slept over in san dimas.
Henry: Likes only Natalie, and he scratches everyone else.
An Introduction
Dear Baby,
This is your mommy, everyone calls me Nikki, but whatever you call me im sure, will be my new name. You also have another mommy her name is Andrea, I call her my baby love, or mi amor, or even mamma, her family calls her yeya, and your great grandma, Ida calls her little one. We have decided that we love you already, no matter if you are short, if you are tall, if you are wide or if you are small, if your eyes are brown, if you are grouchy, if you decide you like to be nocturnal, or vomit violently just like your grandma (memaw cat) said I did when I was little, we will still love you to the end of the earth. Let me tell you how our journey has been so far. You started as a wild idea, your mommy and I met in college, and she sat behind me for 2 months before I even knew she existed. After a few months of nursing school together, we became friends and fell in love. Of course it wasn't that simple, but when you are old enough to understand we will go into detail about that. Your mommy and I have been together for over 4 years, ad we just got married on January 25th 2012. We went to our first appointment with Dr. Chen, and when I got my first ultrasound, your mommy got excited when she saw you as a little egg. After much emotion, and happiness we took some blood tests, and had to come back for another ultrasound. They told me that I would have to take some medicine to clear up some mushroom growing in my house, so I did, and they make me very sick in the morning, but I know it will all be worth it. Dr. Chen has to do a surgery on me so that way we can make sure we can get you made. This has been quite a process right? Well life is a journey, and will always continue to be so. I on top of this am going to school full time to make sure that I can always have the dream you want answered. I want to always be a good example for you, and I want you to always have whatever your heart desires. Your mommy has already graduated school, she has be bachelors for one of the most prestigious school in California! Are you so proud of her? I know I am, I have a video of her graduating, so when you are older I will show you how excited we all are. Everyone is so excited to meet you, and you have so much family who is already in love with you. So please please please help me help myself and your other mommy to create you. I promise to always do right by you, and to love you unconditionally and your mommy and I will teach you about good music, and puppies, and science, and the earth and how to love people and your life. We are going to try and conceive you at the end of march, or perhaps the first week of April. Words cant describe how excited and nervous we are. We love you so much. And we pray for you all the time. Below you will find things that you may be able to relate to one day.
Mommy Andrea:
She likes: Ray Lamontagne, Brandie Carlile, Poodles, Pizza, Decorating, Ikea, Cooking, Gardening, Chili, her family, Salvador Dali, Kadinski, Fancy things, Netflix, Portlandia, Watching TV, Cold showers, Frye boots, Sweater cardigans, The colors green, maroon, and mustard yellow, She likes big framed glasses, science, Michael Jackson, True Blood, Hogging the blankets, All animals, Morroccan oil, taking her time, and being stubborn.
She Dislikes: raw onions, mayonnaise, pickles, coconut, any fruits with seeds, bossy people, mean people, people who don't like animals, having hangovers, driving, yelling, liars, strawberry flavored things or the fruit itself, being late, not planning ahead, the lady she works for, being dirty, toes, smelly farts, and when you mess up her curls.
Mommy Nikki
I like: All kinds of exotic food, sea food, I like trying new things, I like people (sometimes too easily), sleeping, being warm, hot showers, cooking, playing guitar, listening to politics on the radio, music that mommy likes, family, traveling, building things, painting, singing, being funny, telling jokes, gardening, rock climbing, being adventurous, swimming, surfing, the beach, soccer, writing, babies, our puppy, laughing, talking, and pretending to be a philosopher.
I dislike: Math, rude people, peas, failing, people who don't give 100% in everything they do, not being organized, feeling lonely, being cold, being lost, throwing up, being belittled, being sick, not being able to make things better, being ignored, doing dishes, when mommy doesn't cuddle me, crying, being mad, being wrong, being sticky, toes and being away from family.
This is your mommy, everyone calls me Nikki, but whatever you call me im sure, will be my new name. You also have another mommy her name is Andrea, I call her my baby love, or mi amor, or even mamma, her family calls her yeya, and your great grandma, Ida calls her little one. We have decided that we love you already, no matter if you are short, if you are tall, if you are wide or if you are small, if your eyes are brown, if you are grouchy, if you decide you like to be nocturnal, or vomit violently just like your grandma (memaw cat) said I did when I was little, we will still love you to the end of the earth. Let me tell you how our journey has been so far. You started as a wild idea, your mommy and I met in college, and she sat behind me for 2 months before I even knew she existed. After a few months of nursing school together, we became friends and fell in love. Of course it wasn't that simple, but when you are old enough to understand we will go into detail about that. Your mommy and I have been together for over 4 years, ad we just got married on January 25th 2012. We went to our first appointment with Dr. Chen, and when I got my first ultrasound, your mommy got excited when she saw you as a little egg. After much emotion, and happiness we took some blood tests, and had to come back for another ultrasound. They told me that I would have to take some medicine to clear up some mushroom growing in my house, so I did, and they make me very sick in the morning, but I know it will all be worth it. Dr. Chen has to do a surgery on me so that way we can make sure we can get you made. This has been quite a process right? Well life is a journey, and will always continue to be so. I on top of this am going to school full time to make sure that I can always have the dream you want answered. I want to always be a good example for you, and I want you to always have whatever your heart desires. Your mommy has already graduated school, she has be bachelors for one of the most prestigious school in California! Are you so proud of her? I know I am, I have a video of her graduating, so when you are older I will show you how excited we all are. Everyone is so excited to meet you, and you have so much family who is already in love with you. So please please please help me help myself and your other mommy to create you. I promise to always do right by you, and to love you unconditionally and your mommy and I will teach you about good music, and puppies, and science, and the earth and how to love people and your life. We are going to try and conceive you at the end of march, or perhaps the first week of April. Words cant describe how excited and nervous we are. We love you so much. And we pray for you all the time. Below you will find things that you may be able to relate to one day.
Mommy Andrea:
She likes: Ray Lamontagne, Brandie Carlile, Poodles, Pizza, Decorating, Ikea, Cooking, Gardening, Chili, her family, Salvador Dali, Kadinski, Fancy things, Netflix, Portlandia, Watching TV, Cold showers, Frye boots, Sweater cardigans, The colors green, maroon, and mustard yellow, She likes big framed glasses, science, Michael Jackson, True Blood, Hogging the blankets, All animals, Morroccan oil, taking her time, and being stubborn.
She Dislikes: raw onions, mayonnaise, pickles, coconut, any fruits with seeds, bossy people, mean people, people who don't like animals, having hangovers, driving, yelling, liars, strawberry flavored things or the fruit itself, being late, not planning ahead, the lady she works for, being dirty, toes, smelly farts, and when you mess up her curls.
Mommy Nikki
I like: All kinds of exotic food, sea food, I like trying new things, I like people (sometimes too easily), sleeping, being warm, hot showers, cooking, playing guitar, listening to politics on the radio, music that mommy likes, family, traveling, building things, painting, singing, being funny, telling jokes, gardening, rock climbing, being adventurous, swimming, surfing, the beach, soccer, writing, babies, our puppy, laughing, talking, and pretending to be a philosopher.
I dislike: Math, rude people, peas, failing, people who don't give 100% in everything they do, not being organized, feeling lonely, being cold, being lost, throwing up, being belittled, being sick, not being able to make things better, being ignored, doing dishes, when mommy doesn't cuddle me, crying, being mad, being wrong, being sticky, toes and being away from family.
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